"I cannot affect to misunderstand you," he said, feeling more at a nonplus than he had felt for many a day, and heartily wishing the whole female creation, save Isabel, somewhere. "But my dear Barbara. I never gave you cause to think I--that I--cared for you more than I did."
"Never gave me cause!" she gasped. "When you have been coming to our house constantly, almost like my shadow; when you gave me this" dashing open her mantle, and holding up the locket to his view; "when you have been more intimate with me than a brother."
"Stay, Barbara. There it is--a brother. I have been nothing else; it never occurred to me to be anything else," he added, in his straightforward truth.
"Ay, as a brother, nothing else!" and her voice rose once more with her excitement; it seemed that she would not long control it. "What cared you for my feelings? What recked you that you gained my love?"
"Barbara, hush!" he implored: "do be calm and reasonable. If I ever gave you cause to think I regarded you with deeper feelings, I can only express to you my deep regret, my repentance, and assure you it was done unconsciously."
She was growing calmer. The passion was fading, leaving her face still and white. She lifted it toward Mr. Carlyle.
"You treated me ill in showing signs of love, if you felt it not. Why did you kiss me?"
"I kissed you as I might kiss a sister. Or perhaps as a pretty girl; man likes to do so. The close terms on which our families have lived, excused, if it did not justify, a degree of familiarity that might have been unseemly in--"
"You need not tell me that," hotly interrupted Barbara. "Had it been a stranger who had won my love and then thrown me from him, do you suppose I would have reproached him as I am now reproaching you? No; I would have died, rather than that he should have suspected it. If /she/ had not come between us, should you have loved me?"
"Do not pursue this unthankful topic," he besought, almost wishing the staring cow would run away with her.
"I ask you, should you have loved me?" persisted Barbara, passing her handkerchief over her ashy lips.
"I don't know. How can I know? Do I not say to you, Barbara, that I only thought of you as a friend, a sister? I cannot tell what might have been."
"I could bear it better, but that it was known," she murmured. "All West Lynne had coupled us together in their prying gossip, and they have only pity to cast on me now. I would far rather you have killed me, Archibald."
"I can but express to you my deep regret," he repeated. "I can only hope you will soon forget it all. Let the remembrance of this conversation pass away with to-night; let us still be to each other as friends--as brother and sister. Believe me," he concluded, in a deeper tone, "the confession has not lessened you in my estimation."
He made a movement as though he would get over the stile, but Barbara did not stir; the tears were silently coursing down her pallid face.
At that moment there was an interruption.
"Is that you, Miss Barbara?"
Barbara started as if she had been shot. On the other side of the stile stood Wilson, their upper maid. How long might she have been there? She began to explain that Mr. Hare had sent Jasper out, and Mrs. Hare had thought it better to wait no longer for the man's return, so had dispatched her, Wilson, for Miss Barbara. Mr. Carlyle got over the stile, and handed over Miss Barbara.
"You need not come any further now," she said to him in a low tone.
"I should see you home," was his reply, and he held out his arm.
Barbara took it.
They walked in silence. Arrived at the back gate of the grove, which gave entrance to the kitchen garden, Wilson went forward. Mr. Carlyle took both Barbara's hands in his.
"Good-night, Barbara. God bless you."
She had had time for reflection, and the excitement gone, she saw her outbreak in all its shame and folly. Mr. Carlyle noticed how subdued and white she looked.
"I think I have been mad," she groaned. "I must have been mad to say what I did. Forget that it was uttered."
"I told you I would."
"You will not betray me to--to--your wife?" she panted.
"Barbara!"
"Thank you. Good-night."
But he still retained her hands. "In a short time, Barbara, I trust you will find one more worthy to receive your love than I have been."
"Never!" she impulsively answered. "I do not love and forget so lightly. In the years to come, in my old age, I shall still be nothing but Barbara Hare."
Mr. Carlyle walked away in a fit of musing. The revelation had given him pain, and possibly a little bit of flattery into the bargain, for he was fond of pretty Barbara. Fond in his way--not hers--not with the sort of fondness he felt for his wife. He asked his conscience whether his manner to her in the past days had been a tinge warmer than we bestow upon a sister, and he decided that it might have been, but he most certainly never cast a suspicion to the mischief it was doing.
"I heartily hope she'll soon find somebody to her liking and forget me," was his concluding thought. "As to living and dying Barbara Hare, that's all moonshine, and sentimental rubbish that girls like to--"
"Archibald!"
He was passing the very last tree in the park, the nearest to his house, and the interruption came from a dark form standing under it.
"Is it you, my dearest?"
"I came out to meet you. Have you not been very long?"
"I think I have," he answered, as he drew his wife to his side, and walked on with her.
"We met one of the servants at the second stile, but I went on all the way."
"You have been intimate with the Hares?"
"Quite so. Cornelia is related to them."
"Do you think Barbara pretty?"
"Very."
"Then--intimate as you were--I wonder you never fell in love with her."
Mr. Carlyle laughed; a very conscious laugh, considering the recent interview.
"Did you, Archibald?"
The words were spoken in a low tone, almost, or he fancied it, a tone of emotion, and he looked at her in amazement. "Did I what, Isabel?"
"You never loved Barbara Hare?"
"Loved /her/! What is your head running on, Isabel? I never loved but one; and that one I made my own, my cherished wife."
