But I tell you, my lord, and I know myself, I am at least that kind of a man - or that kind of a boy, if you prefer it - that I could die in torments rather than that any one should suffer as that scoundrel suffered.Well, and what have I done? I see it now.I have made a fool of myself, as I said in the beginning; and I have gone back, and asked my father's pardon, and placed myself wholly in his hands - and he has sent me to Hermiston," with a wretched smile, "for life, I suppose -and what can I say? he strikes me as having done quite right, and let me off better than I had deserved.""My poor, dear boy!" observed Glenalmond."My poor dear and, if you will allow me to say so, very foolish boy! You are only discovering where you are; to one of your temperament, or of mine, a painful discovery.The world was not made for us; it was made for ten hundred millions of men, all different from each other and from us; there's no royal road there, we just have to sclamber and tumble.Don't think that I am at all disposed to be surprised; don't suppose that I ever think of blaming you; indeed I rather admire! But there fall to be offered one or two observations on the case which occur to me and which (if you will listen to them dispassionately) may be the means of inducing you to view the matter more calmly.First of all, I cannot acquit you of a good deal of what is called intolerance.You seem to have been very much offended because your father talks a little sculduddery after dinner, which it is perfectly licit for him to do, and which (although I am not very fond of it myself) appears to be entirely an affair of taste.Your father, I scarcely like to remind you, since it is so trite a commonplace, is older than yourself.At least, he is MAJOR and SUIJURIS, and may please himself in the matter of his conversation.And, do you know, I wonder if he might not have as good an answer against you and me? We say we sometimes find him COARSE, but I suspect he might retort that he finds us always dull.Perhaps a relevant exception."He beamed on Archie, but no smile could be elicited.
"And now," proceeded the Judge, "for `Archibald on Capital Punishment.'
This is a very plausible academic opinion; of course I do not and Icannot hold it; but that's not to say that many able and excellent persons have not done so in the past.Possibly, in the past also, I may have a little dipped myself in the same heresy.My third client, or possibly my fourth, was the means of a return in my opinions.I never saw the man I more believed in; I would have put my hand in the fire, Iwould have gone to the cross for him; and when it came to trial he was gradually pictured before me, by undeniable probation, in the light of so gross, so cold-blooded, and so black-hearted a villain, that I had a mind to have cast my brief upon the table.I was then boiling against the man with even a more tropical temperature than I had been boiling for him.But I said to myself: `No, you have taken up his case; and because you have changed your mind it must not be suffered to let drop.
All that rich tide of eloquence that you prepared last night with so much enthusiasm is out of place, and yet you must not desert him, you must say something.' So I said something, and I got him off.It made my reputation.But an experience of that kind is formative.A man must not bring his passions to the bar - or to the bench," he added.
The story had slightly rekindled Archie's interest."I could never deny," he began - "I mean I can conceive that some men would be better dead.But who are we to know all the springs of God's unfortunate creatures? Who are we to trust ourselves where it seems that God Himself must think twice before He treads, and to do it with delight?
Yes, with delight.TIGRIS UT ASPERA."
"Perhaps not a pleasant spectacle," said Glenalmond."And yet, do you know, I think somehow a great one.""I've had a long talk with him to-night," said Archie.
"I was supposing so," said Glenalmond.
"And he struck me - I cannot deny that he struck me as something very big," pursued the son."Yes, he is big.He never spoke about himself;only about me.I suppose I admired him.The dreadful part - ""Suppose we did not talk about that," interrupted Glenalmond."You know it very well, it cannot in any way help that you should brood upon it, and I sometimes wonder whether you and I - who are a pair of sentimentalists - are quite good judges of plain men.""How do you mean?" asked Archie.
"FAIR judges, mean," replied Glenalmond."Can we be just to them? Do we not ask too much? There was a word of yours just now that impressed me a little when you asked me who we were to know all the springs of God's unfortunate creatures.You applied that, as I understood, to capital cases only.But does it - I ask myself - does it not apply all through? Is it any less difficult to judge of a good man or of a half-good man, than of the worst criminal at the bar? And may not each have relevant excuses?""Ah, but we do not talk of punishing the good," cried Archie.
"No, we do not talk of it," said Glenalmond."But I think we do it.Your father, for instance.""You think I have punished him?" cried Archie.
Lord Glenalmond bowed his head.
"I think I have," said Archie."And the worst is, I think he feels it!
How much, who can tell, with such a being? But I think he does.""And I am sure of it," said Glenalmond.
"Has he spoken to you, then?" cried Archie.
"O no," replied the judge.
