Limping, he led the cab away.There was an air of austerity in this departure, the scrunched gravel of the drive crying out under the slowly turning wheels, the horse's lean thighs moving with ascetic deliberation away from the light into the obscurity of the open space bordered dimly by the pointed roofs and the feebly shining windows of the little almshouses.
The plaint of the gravel travelled slowly all round the drive.Between the lamps of the charitable gateway the slow cortege reappeared, lighted up for a moment, the short, thick man limping busily, with the horse's head held aloft in his fist, the lank animal walking in stiff and forlorn dignity, the dark, low box on wheels rolling behind comically with an air of waddling.They turned to the left.There was a pub down the street, within fifty yards of the gate.
Stevie, left alone beside the private lamp-post of the Charity, his hands thrust deep into his pockets, glared with vacant sulkiness.At the bottom of his pockets his incapable, weak hands were clenched hard into a pair of angry fists.In the face of anything which affected directly or indirectly his morbid dread of pain, Stevie ended by turning vicious.
A magnanimous indignation swelled his frail chest to bursting, and caused his candid eyes to squint.Supremely wise in knowing his own powerlessness, Stevie was not wise enough to restrain his passions.The tenderness of his universal charity had two phases as indissolubly joined and connected as the reverse and obverse sides of a medal.The anguish of immoderate compassion was succeeded by the pain of an innocent but pitiless rage.
Those two states expressing themselves outwardly by the same signs of futile bodily agitation, his sister Winnie soothed his excitement without ever fathoming its twofold character.Mrs Verloc wasted no portion of this transient life in seeking for fundamental information.This is a sort of economy having all the appearances and some of the advantages of prudence.Obviously it may be good for one not to know too much.And such a view accords very well with constitutional indolence.
On that evening on which it may be said that Mrs Verloc's mother having parted for good from her children had also departed this life, Winnie Verloc did not investigate her brother's psychology.The poor boy was excited, of course.After once more assuring the old woman on the threshold that she would know how to guard against the risk of Stevie losing himself for very long on his pilgrimages of filial piety, she took her brother's arm to walk away.Stevie did not even mutter to himself, but with the special sense of sisterly devotion developed in her earliest infancy, she felt that the boy was very much excited indeed.Holding tight to his arm, under the appearance of leaning on it, she thought of some words suitable to the occasion.
`Now, Stevie, you must look well after me at the crossings, and get first into the bus, like a good brother.'
This appeal to manly protection was received by Stevie with his usual docility.It flattered him.He raised his head and threw out his chest.
`Don't be nervous, Winnie.Mustn't be nervous! Bus all right,' he answered in a brusque, slurring stammer partaking of the timorousness of a child and the resolution of a man.He advanced fearlessly with the woman on his arm, but his lower lip drooped.Nevertheless, on the pavement of the squalid and wide thoroughfare, whose poverty in all the amenities of life stood foolishly exposed by a mad profusion of gas-lights, their resemblance to each other was so pronounced as to strike the casual passers-by.
Before the doors of the public-house at the corner, where the profusion of gas-light reached the height of positive wickedness, a four-wheeled cab standing by the kerbstone, with no one on the box, seemed cast out into the gutter on account of irremediable decay.Mrs Verloc recognized the conveyance.Its aspect was so profoundly lamentable, with such a perfection of grotesque misery and weirdness of macabre detail, as if it were the Cab of Death itself that Mrs Verloc, with that ready compassion of a woman for a horse (when she is not sitting behind him), exclaimed vaguely!
`Poor brute.'
Hanging back suddenly, Stevie inflicted an arresting jerk upon his sister.
`Poor! Poor!' he ejaculated appreciatively.`Cabman poor, too.He told me himself.'
The contemplation of the infirm and lonely steed overcame him.Jostled, but obstinate, he would remain there, trying to express the view newly opened to his sympathies of the human and equine misery in close association.
But it was very difficult.`Poor brute,'poor people!' was all he could repeat.It did not seem forcible enough, and he came to a stop with an angry splutter.`Shame!' Stevie was no master of phrases, and perhaps for that very reason his thoughts lacked clearness and precision.But he felt with great completeness and some profundity.That little word contained all his sense of indignation and horror at one sort of wretchedness having to feed upon the anguish of the other - as the poor cabman beating the poor horse in the name, as it were, of his poor kids at home.And Stevie knew what it was to be beaten.He knew it from experience.It was a bad world.Bad! Bad!
Mrs Verloc, his only sister, guardian, and protector, could not pretend to such depths of insight.Moreover, she had not experienced the magic of the cabman's eloquence.She was in the dark as to the inwardness of the word `Shame'.And she said placidly:
`Come along, Stevie.You can't help that.'
The docile Stevie went along; but now he went along without pride, shamblingly, and muttering half words, and even words that would have been whole if they had not been made up of halves that did not belong to each other.
It was as though he had been trying to fit all the words he could remember to his sentiments in order to get some sort of corresponding idea.And, as a matter of fact, he got it at last.He hung back to utter it at once.
`Bad world for poor people.'
