第70章 MOLLY GIBSON'S NEW FRIENDS (2)

The squire had heard that Osborne might probably return home for a few days before going abroad; and, though the growing intimacy between Roger and Molly did not alarm him in the least, yet he was possessed by a very hearty panic lest the heir might take a fancy to the surgeon's daughter;and he was in such a fidget for her to leave the house before Osborne came home, that his wife lived in constant terror lest he should make it too obvious to their visitor.Every young girl of seventeen or so, who is at all thoughtful, is very apt to make a Pope out of the first person who presents to her a new or larger system of duty than that by which she has been unconsciously guided hitherto.Such a Pope was Roger to Molly; she looked to his opinion, to his authority on almost every subject, yet he had only said one or two things in a terse manner which gave them the force of precepts - stable guides to her conduct, and had shown the natural superiority in wisdom and knowledge which is sure to exist between a highly educated young man of no common intelligence, and an ignorant girl of seventeen, who yet was well capable of appreciation.Still, although they were drawn together in this very pleasant relationship, each was imagining some one very different for the future owner of their whole heart - their highest and completest love.Roger looked to find a grand woman, his equal, and his empress; beautiful in person, serene in wisdom, ready for counsel, as was Egeria.' Molly's little wavering maiden fancy dwelt on the unseen Osborne, who was now a troubadour, and now a knight, such as he wrote about in one of his own poems; some one like Osborne, perhaps, rather than Osborne himself, for she shrank from giving a personal form and name to the hero that was to be.The squire was not unwise in wishing her well out of the house before Osborne came home, if he was considering her peace of mind.Yet, when she went away from the hall he missed her constantly; it had been so pleasant to have her there daily fulfilling all the pretty offices of a daughter;cheering the meals, so often tête-à-tête betwixt him and Roger, with her innocent wise questions, her lively interest in their talk, her merry replies to his banter.And Roger missed her too.Sometimes her remarks had probed into his mind, and excited him to the deep thought in which he delighted; at other times he had felt himself of real help to her in her hours of need, and in ****** her take an interest in books, which treated of higher things than the continual fiction and poetry which she had hitherto read.He felt something like an affectionate tutor who was suddenly deprived of his most promising pupil; he wondered how she would go on without him; whether she would be puzzled and disheartened by the books he had lent her to read; how she and her stepmother would get along together? She occupied his thoughts a good deal those first few days after she left the hall.Mrs Hamley regretted her more, and longer than did the other two.She had given her the place of a daughter in her heart; and now she missed the sweet feminine companionship, the playful caresses, the never-ceasing attentions; the very need of sympathy in her sorrows, that Molly had shown so openly from time to time; all these things had extremely endeared her to the tenderhearted Mrs Hamley.Molly, too, felt the change of atmosphere keenly; and she blamed herself for so feeling even more keenly still.But she could not help having a sense of refinement, which had made her appreciate the whole manner of being at the Hall.By her dear old friends the Miss Brownings she was petted and caressed so much that she became ashamed of noticing the coarser and louder tones in which they spoke, the provincialism of their pronunciation, the absence of interest in things, and their greediness of details about persons.They asked her questions which she was puzzled enough to answer about her future stepmother; her loyalty to her father forbidding her to reply fully and truthfully.She was always glad when they began to make inquiries as to every possible affair at the Hall.She had been so happy there; she liked them all, down to the very dogs, so thoroughly, that it was easy work replying: she did not mind telling them everything, even to the style of Mrs Hamley's invalid dress; nor what wine the squire drank at dinner.Indeed, talking about these things helped her to recall the happiest time in her life.But one evening, as they were all sitting together after tea in the little upstairs drawing-room, looking into the High Street - Molly discoursing away on the various pleasures of Hamley Hall, and just then telling of all Roger's wisdom in natural science, and some of the curiosities he had shown her, she was suddenly pulled up by this little speech, - 'You seem to have seen a great deal of Mr Roger, Molly!' said Miss Browning, in a way intended to convey a great deal of meaning to her sister and none at all to Molly.But, - The man recovered of the bite; The dog it was that died.' Molly was perfectly aware of Miss Browning's emphatic tone, though at first she was perplexed as to its cause; while Miss Phoebe was just then too much absorbed in knitting the heel of her stocking to be fully alive to her sister's nods and winks.'Yes; he was very kind to me,' said Molly, slowly, pondering over Miss Browning's manner, and unwilling to say more until she had satisfied herself to what the question tended.'I dare say you will soon be going to Hamley Hall again? He's not the eldest son,.you know, Phoebe! Don't make my head ache with your eternal "eighteen, nineteen," but attend to the conversation.Molly is telling us how much she saw of Mr Roger, and how kind he was to her.I've always heard he was a very nice young man, my dear.Tell us some more about him! Now, Phoebe, attend! How was he kind to you, Molly?' 'Oh, he told me what books to read; and one day he made me notice how many bees I saw -- ' 'Bees, child! What do you mean? Either you or he must have been crazy!' 'No, not at all.There are more than two hundred kinds of bees in England, and he wanted me to notice the difference between them and flies.Miss Browning, I can't help seeing what you fancy,' said Molly, as red as fire, 'but it is very wrong; it is all a mistake.I won't speak another word about Mr Roger or Hamley at all, if it puts such silly notions into your head.' 'Highty-tighty! Here's a young lady to be lecturing her elders! Silly notions, indeed! They are in your head, it seems.And let me tell you, Molly, you are too young to let your mind be running on lovers.' Molly had been once or twice called saucy and impertinent, and certainly a little sauciness came out now.'I never said what the "silly notion" was, Miss Browning; did I now, Miss Phoebe? Don't you see, dear Miss Phoebe, it is all her own interpretation, and according to her own fancy, this foolish talk about lovers?' Molly was flaming with indignation; but she had appealed to the wrong person for justice.Miss Phoebe tried to make peace after the fashion of weak-minded persons, who would cover over the unpleasant sight of a sore, instead of trying to heal it.'I'm sure I don't know anything about it, my dear.It seems to me that what Sally was saying was very true - very true indeed; and I think, love, you misunderstood her; or, perhaps, she misunderstood you; or I may be misunderstanding it altogether; so we'd better not talk any more about it.What price did you say you were going to give for the drugget in Mr Gibson's dining-room, sister?' So Miss Browning and Molly went on till evening, each chafed and angry with the other.They wished each other good-night, going through the usual forms in the coolest manner possible.Molly went up to her little bedroom, clean and neat as a bedroom could be, with draperies of small delicate patchwork - bed-curtains, window-curtains, and counter-pane; a japanned toilette -table, full of little boxes, with a small looking-glass affixed to it, that distorted every face that was so unwise as to look in it.This room had been to the child one of the most dainty and luxurious places ever seen, in comparison with her own bare, white-dimity bedroom;and now she was sleeping in it, as a guest, and all the quaint adornments she had once peeped at as a great favour, as they were carefully wrapped up in cap-paper, were set out for her use.And yet how little she had deserved this hospitable care; how impertinent she had been; how cross she had felt ever since! She was crying tears of penitence and youthful misery when there came a low tap to the door.Molly opened it, and there stood Miss Browning, in a wonderful erection of a nightcap, and scantily attired in a coloured calico jacket over her scrimpy and short white petticoat.'I was afraid you were asleep, child,' said she, coming in and shutting the door.'But I wanted to say to you we've got wrong to-day, somehow;and I think it was perhaps my doing.It's as well Phoebe shouldn't know, for she thinks me perfect; and when there's only two of us, we get along better if one of us thinks the other can do no wrong.But I rather think I was a little cross.We'll not say any more about it, Molly; only we'll go to sleep friends, - and friends we'll always be, child, won't we? Now give me a kiss, and don't cry and swell your eyes up; - and put out your candle carefully.' 'I was wrong - it was my fault,' said Molly, kissing her.'Fiddlestick-ends! Don't contradict me! I say it was my fault, and I won't hear another word about it.' The next day Molly went with Miss Browning to see the changes going on in her father's house.To her they were but dismal improvements.The faint grey of the dining-room walls, which had harmonized well enough with the deep crimson of the moreen curtains, and which when well cleaned looked thinly coated rather than dirty, was now exchanged for a pink salmon-colour of a very glowing hue; and the new curtains were of that pale sea-green just coming into fashion.'Very bright and pretty,' Miss Browning called it; and in the first renewing of their love Molly could not bear to contradict her.She could only hope that the green and brown drugget would tone down the brightness and prettiness.There was scaffolding here, scaffolding there, and Betty scolding everywhere.'Come up now, and see your papa's bedroom.He's sleeping upstairs in yours, that everything may be done up afresh in his.' Molly could just remember, in faint clear lines of distinctness, the being taken into this very room to bid farewell to her dying mother.She could see the white linen, the white muslin, surrounding the pale, wan wistful face, with the large, longing eyes, yearning for one more touch of the little soft warm child, whom she was too feeble to clasp in her arms, already growing numb in death.Many a time when Molly had been in this room since that sad day, had she seen in vivid fancy that same wan wistful face lying on the pillow, the outline of the form beneath the clothes; and the girl had not shrunk from such visions, but rather cherished them, as preserving to her the remembrance of her mother's outward semblance.Her eyes were full of tears, as she followed Miss Browning into this room to see it under its new aspect.Nearly everything was changed - the position of the bed and the colour of the furniture; there was a grand toilette -table now, with a glass upon it, instead of the primitive substitute of the top of a chest of drawers, with a mirror above upon the wall, sloping downwards;these latter things had served her mother during her short married life.'You see we must have all in order for a lady who has passed so much of her time in the countess's mansion,' said Miss Browning, who was now quite reconciled to the marriage, thanks to the pleasant employment of furnishing that had devolved upon her in consequence.'Cromer, the upholsterer, wanted to persuade me to have a sofa and a writing-table.These men will say anything is the fashion, if they want to sell an article.I said, "No, no, Cromer: