She lay quiet in the dark corner,listening,through the monotonous din and uncertain glare of the works,to the dull plash of the rain in the far distance,shrinking back whenever the man Wolfe happened to look towards her.She knew,in spite of all his kindness,that there was that in her face and form which made him loathe the sight of her.She felt by instinct,although she could not comprehend it,the finer nature of the man,which made him among his fellow-workmen something unique,set apart.She knew,that,down under all the vileness and coarseness of his life,there was a groping passion for whatever was beautiful and pure,that his soul sickened with disgust at her deformity,even when his words were kindest.Through this dull consciousness,which never left her,came,like a sting,the recollection of the dark blue eyes and lithe figure of the little Irish girl she had left in the cellar.The recollection struck through even her stupid intellect with a vivid glow of beauty and of grace.Little Janey,timid,helpless,clinging to Hugh as her only friend:that was the sharp thought,the bitter thought,that drove into the glazed eyes a fierce light of pain.
You laugh at it?Are pain and jealousy less savage realities down here in this place I am taking you to than in your own house or your own heart,--your heart,which they clutch at sometimes?The note is the same,I fancy,be the octave high or low.
If you could go into this mill where Deborah lay,and drag out from the hearts of these men the terrible tragedy of their lives,taking it as a symptom of the disease of their class,no ghost Horror would terrify you more.A reality of soul-starvation,of living death,that meets you every day under the besotted faces on the street,--I can paint nothing of this,only give you the outside outlines of a night,a crisis in the life of one man:whatever muddy depth of soul-history lies beneath you can read according to the eyes God has given you.
Wolfe,while Deborah watched him as a spaniel its master,bent over the furnace with his iron pole,unconscious of her scrutiny,only stopping to receive orders.Physically,Nature had promised the man but little.He had already lost the strength and instinct vigor of a man,his muscles were thin,his nerves weak,his face (a meek,woman's face)haggard,yellow with consumption.In the mill he was known as one of the girl-men:"Molly Wolfe"was his sobriquet.He was never seen in the cockpit,did not own a terrier,drank but seldom;when he did,desperately.He fought sometimes,but was always thrashed,pommelled to a jelly.The man was game enough,when his blood was up:but he was no favorite in the mill;he had the taint of school-learning on him,--not to a dangerous extent,only a quarter or so in the free-school in fact,but enough to ruin him as a good hand in a fight.
For other reasons,too,he was not popular.Not one of themselves,they felt that,though outwardly as filthy and ash-covered;silent,with foreign thoughts and longings breaking out through his quietness in innumerable curious ways:this one,for instance.In the neighboring furnace-buildings lay great heaps of the refuse from the ore after the pig-metal is run.
Korl we call it here:a light,porous substance,of a delicate,waxen,flesh-colored tinge.Out of the blocks of this korl,Wolfe,in his off-hours from the furnace,had a habit of chipping and moulding figures,--hideous,fantastic enough,but sometimes strangely beautiful:even the mill-men saw that,while they jeered at him.It was a curious fancy in the man,almost a passion.The few hours for rest he spent hewing and hacking with his blunt knife,never speaking,until his watch came again,--working at one figure for months,and,when it was finished,breaking it to pieces perhaps,in a fit of disappointment.A morbid,gloomy man,untaught,unled,left to feed his soul in grossness and crime,and hard,grinding labor.
I want you to come down and look at this Wolfe,standing there among the lowest of his kind,and see him just as he is,that you may judge him justly when you hear the story of this night.
I want you to look back,as he does every day,at his birth in vice,his starved infancy;to remember the heavy years he has groped through as boy and man,--the slow,heavy years of constant,hot work.So long ago he began,that he thinks sometimes he has worked there for ages.There is no hope that it will ever end.Think that God put into this man's soul a fierce thirst for beauty,--to know it,to create it;to be--something,he knows not what,--other than he is.There are moments when a passing cloud,the sun glinting on the purple thistles,a kindly smile,a child's face,will rouse him to a passion of pain,--when his nature starts up with a mad cry of rage against God,man,whoever it is that has forced this vile,slimy life upon him.With all this groping,this mad desire,a great blind intellect stumbling through wrong,a loving poet's heart,the man was by habit only a coarse,vulgar laborer,familiar with sights and words you would blush to name.Be just:when I tell you about this night,see him as he is.Be just,--not like man's law,which seizes on one isolated fact,but like God's judging angel,whose clear,sad eye saw all the countless cankering days of this man's life,all the countless nights,when,sick with starving,his soul fainted in him,before it judged him for this night,the saddest of all.
I called this night the crisis of his life.If it was,it stole on him unawares.These great turning-days of life cast no shadow before,slip by unconsciously.Only a trifle,a little turn of the rudder,and the ship goes to heaven or hell.
