登陆注册
26176900000085

第85章 THAT NIGHT(3)

A wind seemed to wake inside the house,blowing without sound or impact;and a water began to rise that had no lap in its ripples,no sob in its swell.It was cold,but it did not benumb.Unseen and noiseless it came.It smote no sense in me,yet I knew it rising.I saw it lift at last and float her.Gently it bore her,unable to resist,and left rather than laid her on the settle.Then it sank swiftly away.

The strife of thought,accusing and excusing,began afresh,and gathered fierceness.The soul of Lilith lay naked to the torture of pure interpenetrating inward light.She began to moan,and sigh deep sighs,then murmur as holding colloquy with a dividual self:

her queendom was no longer whole;it was divided against itself.

One moment she would exult as over her worst enemy,and weep;the next she would writhe as in the embrace of a friend whom her soul hated,and laugh like a demon.At length she began what seemed a tale about herself,in a language so strange,and in forms so shadowy,that I could but here and there understand a little.Yet the language seemed the primeval shape of one I knew well,and the forms to belong to dreams which had once been mine,but refused to be recalled.The tale appeared now and then to touch upon things that Adam had read from the disparted manuscript,and often to make allusion to influences and forces--vices too,I could not help suspecting--with which I was unacquainted.

She ceased,and again came the horror in her hair,the sparkling and flowing alternate.I sent a beseeching look to Mara.

"Those,alas,are not the tears of repentance!"she said."The true tears gather in the eyes.Those are far more bitter,and not so good.Self-loathing is not sorrow.Yet it is good,for it marks a step in the way home,and in the father's arms the prodigal forgets the self he abominates.Once with his father,he is to himself of no more account.It will be so with her."She went nearer and said,"Will you restore that which you have wrongfully taken?""I have taken nothing,"answered the princess,forcing out the words in spite of pain,"that I had not the right to take.My power to take manifested my right."Mara left her.

Gradually my soul grew aware of an invisible darkness,a something more terrible than aught that had yet made itself felt.A horrible Nothingness,a Negation positive infolded her;the border of its being that was yet no being,touched me,and for one ghastly instant I seemed alone with Death Absolute!It was not the absence of everything I felt,but the presence of Nothing.The princess dashed herself from the settle to the floor with an exceeding great and bitter cry.It was the recoil of Being from Annihilation.

"For pity's sake,"she shrieked,"tear my heart out,but let me live!"With that there fell upon her,and upon us also who watched with her,the perfect calm as of a summer night.Suffering had all but reached the brim of her life's cup,and a hand had emptied it!She raised her head,half rose,and looked around her.A moment more,and she stood erect,with the air of a conqueror:she had won the battle!Dareful she had met her spiritual foes;they had withdrawn defeated!She raised her withered arm above her head,a p鎍n of unholy triumph in her throat--when suddenly her eyes fixed in a ghastly stare.--What was she seeing?

I looked,and saw:before her,cast from unseen heavenly mirror,stood the reflection of herself,and beside it a form of splendent beauty,She trembled,and sank again on the floor helpless.She knew the one what God had intended her to be,the other what she had made herself.

The rest of the night she lay motionless altogether.

With the gray dawn growing in the room,she rose,turned to Mara,and said,in prideful humility,"You have conquered.Let me go into the wilderness and bewail myself."Mara saw that her submission was not feigned,neither was it real.

She looked at her a moment,and returned:

"Begin,then,and set right in the place of wrong.""I know not how,"she replied--with the look of one who foresaw and feared the answer.

"Open thy hand,and let that which is in it go."A fierce refusal seemed to struggle for passage,but she kept it prisoned.

"I cannot,"she said."I have no longer the power.Open it for me."She held out the offending hand.It was more a paw than a hand.It seemed to me plain that she could not open it.

Mara did not even look at it.

"You must open it yourself,"she said quietly.

"I have told you I cannot!"

"You can if you will--not indeed at once,but by persistent effort.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 傲娇老公带回家

    傲娇老公带回家

    顾洛和顾陌高中三年,大学四年。可是一场变故,让她去了美国,他失魂落魄的留在伤心地。被好闺蜜与男朋友合伙坑了一把。她再次回国。这一次,他死缠烂打终于唤回她的真心。他不让她工作,只让她花钱,他恨不得捧在手心里疼。“憋死我了,我想加班啊!”顾洛趴在阳台上,不开心。第二天,她收到一份邀请——顾先生的“私人秘书”。——温馨小片段一次我和他吵架了,具体为啥不记得了,我俩高冷,谁也不理谁,僵持了一天多,晚上顾陌突然来了,冷着一张脸,说道:“你怎么回事?反了你了?造反啊?”着实把我吓得不轻,我咽了口唾沫,准备认错,谁知他突然抱住我,小心翼翼甚至哽咽说:“我错了。”
  • 魔尊的冷血逃妃

    魔尊的冷血逃妃

    一个奇怪的人,送了她一个奇怪的血玉凤凰簪,一觉醒来,却成为魔尊王妃,不行不行,她一个21世纪的潮女,怎么能就这样度过一生呢,她要逃,她要追求自己的生活,可冥冥之中,运命早已安排好。
  • 耽美:爱就爱啊

    耽美:爱就爱啊

    只要你想爱就去爱!同性有什么关系?一起来阅读吧!这里一定会有一篇小故事,让你鼓起勇气去接受他们的!
  • 绝宠蜜恋:腹黑上司来催稿

    绝宠蜜恋:腹黑上司来催稿

    催稿催稿无人应,编辑表示很生气,大boss,SOS!大boss应急空降小屋,死皮赖脸以编辑的身份催稿的理由住了下来。“喂喂喂!我说大boss,你催稿就催稿,动手动脚干什么!”大boss贴近脸说道:“今天可以不更新。”“真的?”“肉偿即可。”
  • 超级农王

    超级农王

    平凡少年得神奇手链,特殊功能造就不一样的农场。奈何旁人觊觎,耍黑招,使阴谋,千方百计来陷害,独身少年处处遭到欺凌,他如何解脱?正义与邪恶之间他又如何选择?世态炎凉,人心叵测,且看独身的少年如何巧用妙计来一一击破,顺我者昌,逆我者亡,且看平凡的少年如何成就一段独一无二前所未有的农王传奇。
  • 再造地球计划

    再造地球计划

    当大地破灭,星辰轮转,我们的地球终有一天会消亡,我们是继续守护着地球,还是打破以往的界限,冲往新的征程?我们又该何去何从?而我们却只是守护者,如何去面对未来?
  • 何欲寂灭

    何欲寂灭

    那天,我在树林中偶然得到一颗珠子,从此踏上了仙途。然而偶然又岂非一种必然,冥冥之中又哪里没有定数!在这方世界里,我以为我将书写一段锦绣,邂逅一番良缘……可最后,我才拨开了迷雾,看清了我真正的归宿,我的宿命——沉于寂灭!
  • 捡来国民男神:索吻99次

    捡来国民男神:索吻99次

    国民女神宋瑶重生了,重生在沈家千金沈晴溪身上。顺手救了被人追杀的帅气男子,他附在她耳边,低沉的磁音响起:“救我,我让你在A市横着走。”“好。”沈晴溪挑了挑眉,爽快的答应了。……再见,他是和她哥一起来她家借宿的时家继承人。沈家别墅。“蠢妞,又见面了。”他薄唇轻启。“……”沈晴溪一脸懵逼。“啊啊啊,快把衣服穿上!”看着面前只寄着一条浴巾的时景辰,沈晴溪不淡定了。“你妈说我是你的未!婚!夫!”他淡淡开口,把她抵在墙角,不留一点缝隙。操!未婚夫?母后为什么不告诉她?看着炸毛一般的沈晴溪,时景辰勾起嘴角……
  • 中外名人的青少年时代:艾森豪威尔麦克阿瑟

    中外名人的青少年时代:艾森豪威尔麦克阿瑟

    本书生动记述了两位军事家的家庭背景、童年生活、艰辛的求学历程、充实的大学生活、宽广的兴趣爱好,以及对其一生有重大影响的人和事,重点探究了他们取得成功的主客观因素,更多的描述了他们成功之前的历史,是值得一读的励志类读物。
  • 苦修神位

    苦修神位

    身为被一流世家抛弃的废物凌天新,意外获得八色神雷传承,获得一身绝世传承,纵横地球。