Back in Oakland from my wanderings,I returned to the water-front and renewed my comradeship with Nelson,who was now on shore all the time and living more madly than before.I,too,spent my time on shore with him,only occasionally going for cruises of several days on the bay to help out on short-handed scow-schooners.
The result was that I was no longer reinvigorated by periods of open-air abstinence and healthy toil.I drank every day,and whenever opportunity offered I drank to excess;for I still laboured under the misconception that the secret of John Barleycorn lay in drinking to bestiality and unconsciousness.Ibecame pretty thoroughly alcohol-soaked during this period.Ipractically lived in saloons;became a bar-room loafer,and worse.
And right here was John Barleycorn getting me in a more insidious though no less deadly way than when he nearly sent me out with the tide.I had a few months still to run before I was seventeen;Iscorned the thought of a steady job at anything;I felt myself a pretty tough individual in a group of pretty tough men;and Idrank because these men drank and because I had to make good with them.I had never had a real boyhood,and in this,my precocious manhood,I was very hard and woefully wise.Though I had never known girl's love even,I had crawled through such depths that Iwas convinced absolutely that I knew the last word about love and life.And it wasn't a pretty knowledge.Without being pessimistic,I was quite satisfied that life was a rather cheap and ordinary affair.
You see,John Barleycorn was blunting me.The old stings and prods of the spirit were no longer sharp.Curiosity was leaving me.What did it matter what lay on the other side of the world?
Men and women,without doubt,very much like the men and women Iknew;marrying and giving in marriage and all the petty run of petty human concerns;and drinks,too.But the other side of the world was a long way to go for a drink.I had but to step to the corner and get all I wanted at Joe Vigy's.Johnny Heinhold still ran the Last Chance.And there were saloons on all the corners and between the corners.
The whispers from the back of life were growing dim as my mind and body soddened.The old unrest was drowsy.I might as well rot and die here in Oakland as anywhere else.And I should have so rotted and died,and not in very long order either,at the pace John Barleycorn was leading me,had the matter depended wholly on him.I was learning what it was to have no appetite.I was learning what it was to get up shaky in the morning,with a stomach that quivered,with fingers touched with palsy,and to know the drinker's need for a stiff glass of whisky neat in order to brace up.(Oh!John Barleycorn is a wizard dopester.Brain and body,scorched and jangled and poisoned,return to be tuned up by the very poison that caused the damage.)There is no end to John Barleycorn's tricks.He had tried to inveigle me into killing myself.At this period he was doing his best to kill me at a fairly rapid pace.But,not satisfied with that,he tried another dodge.He very nearly got me,too,and right there I learned a lesson about him--became a wiser,a more skilful drinker.I learned there were limits to my gorgeous constitution,and that there were no limits to John Barleycorn.Ilearned that in a short hour or two he could master my strong head,my broad shoulders and deep chest,put me on my back,and with a devil's grip on my throat proceed to choke the life out of me.
Nelson and I were sitting in the Overland House.It was early in the evening,and the only reason we were there was because we were broke and it was election time.You see,in election time local politicians,aspirants for office,have a way of ****** the rounds of the saloons to get votes.One is sitting at a table,in a dry condition,wondering who is going to turn up and buy him a drink,or if his credit is good at some other saloon and if it's worth while to walk that far to find out,when suddenly the saloon doors swing wide,and enters a bevy of well-dressed men,themselves usually wide and exhaling an atmosphere of prosperity and fellowship.
They have smiles and greetings for everybody--for you,without the price of a glass of beer in your pocket,for the timid hobo who lurks in the corner and who certainly hasn't a vote,but who may establish a lodging-house registration.And do you know,when these politicians swing wide the doors and come in,with their broad shoulders,their deep chests,and their generous stomachs which cannot help ****** them optimists and masters of life,why,you perk right up.It's going to be a warm evening after all,and you know you'll get a souse started at the very least.
And--who knows?--the gods may be kind,other drinks may come,and the night culminate in glorious greatness.And the next thing you know,you are lined up at the bar,pouring drinks down your throat and learning the gentlemen's names and the offices which they hope to fill.
It was during this period,when the politicians went their saloon rounds,that I was getting bitter bits of education and having illusions punctured--I,who had pored and thrilled over "The Rail-Splitter,"and "From Canal Boy to President."Yes,I was learning how noble politics and politicians are.
Well,on this night,broke,thirsty,but with the drinker's faith in the unexpected drink,Nelson and I sat in the Overland House waiting for something to turn up,especially politicians.And there entered Joe Goose--he of the unquenchable thirst,the wicked eyes,the crooked nose,the flowered vest.
"Come on,fellows--free booze--all you want of it.I didn't want you to miss it.""Where?"we wanted to know.
"Come on.I'll tell you as we go along.We haven't a minute to lose."And as we hurried up town,Joe Goose explained:"It's the Hancock Fire Brigade.All you have to do is wear a red shirt and a helmet,and carry a torch.
