Therefore I make provision, ere I begin To do the thing thou givest me to do, Praying,--Lord, wake me oftener, lest I sin.
Amidst my work, open thine eyes on me, That I may wake and laugh, and know and see Then with healed heart afresh catch up the clue, And singing drop into my work anew.
16.
If I should slow diverge, and listless stray Into some thought, feeling, or dream unright, O Watcher, my backsliding soul affray;
Let me not perish of the ghastly blight.
Be thou, O Life eternal, in me light;
Then merest approach of selfish or impure Shall start me up alive, awake, secure.
17.
Lord, I have fallen again--a human clod!
Selfish I was, and heedless to offend;
Stood on my rights. Thy own child would not send Away his shreds of nothing for the whole God!
Wretched, to thee who savest, low I bend:
Give me the power to let my rag-rights go In the great wind that from thy gulf doth blow.
18.
Keep me from wrath, let it seem ever so right:
My wrath will never work thy righteousness.
Up, up the hill, to the whiter than snow-shine, Help me to climb, and dwell in pardon's light.
I must be pure as thou, or ever less Than thy design of me--therefore incline My heart to take men's wrongs as thou tak'st mine.
19.
Lord, in thy spirit's hurricane, I pray, Strip my soul naked--dress it then thy way.
Change for me all my rags to cloth of gold.
Who would not poverty for riches yield?
A hovel sell to buy a treasure-field?
Who would a mess of porridge careful hold Against the universe's birthright old?
20.
Help me to yield my will, in labour even, Nor toil on toil, greedy of doing, heap--Fretting I cannot more than me is given;
That with the finest clay my wheel runs slow, Nor lets the lovely thing the shapely grow;
That memory what thought gives it cannot keep, And nightly rimes ere morn like cistus-petals go.
21.
'Tis--shall thy will be done for me?--or mine, And I be made a thing not after thine--My own, and dear in paltriest details?
Shall I be born of God, or of mere man?
Be made like Christ, or on some other plan?--I let all run:--set thou and trim my sails;
Home then my course, let blow whatever gales.
22.
With thee on board, each sailor is a king Nor I mere captain of my vessel then, But heir of earth and heaven, eternal child;
Daring all truth, nor fearing anything;
Mighty in love, the servant of all men;
Resenting nothing, taking rage and blare Into the Godlike silence of a loving care.
23.
I cannot see, my God, a reason why >From morn to night I go not gladsome free;
For, if thou art what my soul thinketh thee, There is no burden but should lightly lie, No duty but a joy at heart must be:
Love's perfect will can be nor sore nor small, For God is light--in him no darkness is at all.
24.
'Tis something thus to think, and half to trust--But, ah! my very heart, God-born, should lie Spread to the light, clean, clear of mire and rust, And like a sponge drink the divine sunbeams.
What resolution then, strong, swift, and high!
What pure devotion, or to live or die!
And in my sleep, what true, what perfect dreams!
25.
There is a misty twilight of the soul, A sickly eclipse, low brooding o'er a man, When the poor brain is as an empty bowl, And the thought-spirit, weariful and wan, Turning from that which yet it loves the best, Sinks moveless, with life-poverty opprest:--Watch then, O Lord, thy feebly glimmering coal.
26.
I cannot think; in me is but a void;
I have felt much, and want to feel no more;
My soul is hungry for some poorer fare--Some earthly nectar, gold not unalloyed:--The little child that's happy to the core, Will leave his mother's lap, run down the stair, Play with the servants--is his mother annoyed?
27.
I would not have it so. Weary and worn, Why not to thee run straight, and be at rest?
Motherward, with toy new, or garment torn, The child that late forsook her changeless breast, Runs to home's heart, the heaven that's heavenliest:
In joy or sorrow, feebleness or might, Peace or commotion, be thou, Father, my delight.
28.
The thing I would say, still comes forth with doubt And difference:--is it that thou shap'st my ends?
Or is it only the necessity Of stubborn words, that shift sluggish about, Warping my thought as it the sentence bends?--Have thou a part in it, O Lord, and I Shall say a truth, if not the thing I try.
29.
Gather my broken fragments to a whole, As these four quarters make a shining day.
Into thy basket, for my golden bowl, Take up the things that I have cast away In vice or indolence or unwise play.
Let mine be a merry, all-receiving heart, But make it a whole, with light in every part.
