Tess had not at this hour the curiosity to ask why the present Mr Clare was not made a parson like his brethren, and gradually fell asleep again, the words of her informant coming to her along with the smell of the cheeses in the adjoining cheese-loft, and the measured dripping of the whey from the wrings downstairs.
Chapter 18 Angel Clare rises out of the past not altogether as a distinct figure, but as an appreciative voice, a long regard of fixed, abstracted eyes, and a mobility of mouth somewhat too small and delicately lined for a man's, though with an unexpectedly firm close of the lower lip now and then; enough to do away with any inference of indecision.Nevertheless, something nebulous, preoccupied, vague, in his bearing and regard, marked him as one who probably had no very definite aim or concern about his material future.Yet as a lad people had said of him that he was one who might do anything if he tried.
He was the youngest son of his father, a poor parson at the other end of the county, and had arrived at Talbothays Dairy as a six months' pupil, after going the round of some other farms, his object being to acquire a practical skill in the various processes of farming, with a view either to the Colonies, or the tenure of a home-farm, as circumstances might decide.
His entry into the ranks of the agriculturists and breeders was a step in the young man's career which had been anticipated neither by himself nor by others.
Mr Clare the elder, whose first wife had died and left him a daughter, married a second late in life.This lady had somewhat unexpectedly brought him three sons, so that between Angel, the youngest, and his father the vicar there seemed to be almost a missing generation.Of these boys the aforesaid Angel, the child of his old age, was the only son who had not taken a University degree, though he was the single one of them whose early promise might have done full justice to an academical training.
Some two or three years before Angel's appearance at the Marlott dance, on a day when he had left school and was pursuing his studies at home, a parcel came to the vicarage from the local bookseller's, directed to the Reverend James Clare.The vicar having opened it and found it to contain a book, read a few pages; whereupon he lumped up from his seat and went straight to the shop with the book under his arm.
`Why has this been sent to my house?' he asked peremptorily, holding up the volume.
`It was ordered, sir.'
`Not by me, or any one belonging to me, I am happy to say.' The shopkeeper looked into his order-book.
`Oh, it has been misdirected, sir,' he said.`It was ordered by Mr Angel Clare, and should have been sent to him.'
Mr Clare winced as if he had been struck.He went home pale and dejected, and called Angel into his study.
`Look into this book, my boy,' he said.`What do you know about it?'
`I ordered it,' said Angel simply.
`What for?'
`To read.'
`How can you think of reading it?'
`How can I? Why - it is a system of philosophy.There is no more moral, or even religious, work published.'
`Yes - moral enough; I don't deny that.But religious! - and for you , who intend to be a minister of the Gospel!'
`Since you have alluded to the matter, father,' said the son, with anxious thought upon his face, `I should like to say, once for all, that I should prefer not to take Orders.I fear I could not conscientiously do so.Ilove the Church as one loves a parent.I shall always have the warmest affection for her.There is no institution for whose history I have a deeper admiration; but I cannot honestly be ordained her minister, as my brothers are, while she refuses to liberate her mind from an untenable redemptive theolatry.'
It had never occurred to the straightforward and ******-minded Vicar that one of his own flesh and blood could come to this! He was stultified, shocked, paralyzed.And if Angel were not going to enter the Church, what was the use of sending him to Cambridge? The University as a step to anything but ordination seemed, to this man of fixed ideas, a preface without a volume.He was a man not merely religious, but devout; a firm believer - not as the phrase is now elusively construed by theological thimble-riggers in the Church and out of it, but in the old and ardent sense of the Evangelical school: one who could Indeed opine That the Eternal and Divine Did, eighteen centuries ago In very truth...Angel's father tried argument, persuasion, entreaty.
`No, father: I cannot underwrite Article Four (leave alone the rest), taking it "in the literal and grammatical sense" as required by the Declaration;and, therefore, I can't be a parson in the present state of affairs,' said Angel.`My whole instinct in matters of religion is towards reconstruction;to quote your favourite Epistle to the Hebrews, " the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain ".'
His father grieved so deeply that it made Angel quite ill to see him.
`What is the good of your mother and me economizing and stinting ourselves to give you a University education, if it is not to be used for the honour and glory of God?' his father repeated.
`Why, that it may be used for the honour and glory of man, father.'
Perhaps if Angel had persevered he might have gone to Cambridge like his brothers.But the Vicar's view of that seat of learning as a stepping-stone to Orders alone was quite a family tradition; and so rooted was the idea in his mind that perseverance began to appear to the sensitive son akin to an intent to misappropriate a trust, and wrong the pious heads of the household, who had been and were, as his father had hinted, compelled to exercise much thrift to carry out this uniform plan of education for the three young men.
`I will do without Cambridge,' said Angel at last.`I feel that I have no right to go there in the circumstances.'
The effects of this decisive debate were not long in showing themselves.
