CHAPTER XXII
"For heaven's sake,sir,allow me to go!"
"On no account,Madame Fontaine.If you won't remain here,in justice to yourself,remain as a favor to me."When I opened my bedroom door the next morning,the widow and Mr.Keller were on the landing outside,and those were the words exchanged between them.
Mr.Keller approached,and spoke to me.
"What do you know,David,about the disappearance of Mr.Engelman?""Disappearance?"I repeated."I was with him yesterday evening--and Ibade him good-night in his own room."
"He must have left the house before the servants were up this morning,"said Mr.Keller."Read that."
He handed me a morsel of paper with writing on it in pencil:--"Forgive me,dear friend and partner,for leaving you without saying good-bye;also for burdening you with the direction of business,before you are perhaps strong enough to accept the charge.My mind is in such a state of confusion that I should be worse than useless in the office.
While I write this,my poor weak head burns as if there was fire in it.Icannot face _her,_I cannot face _you_--I must go,before I lose all control over myself.Don't attempt to trace me.If change and absence restore me to myself I will return.If not,a man at my age and in my state of mind is willing to die.Please tell Madame Fontaine that I ask her pardon with all my heart.Good-bye--and God bless and prosper you."I was unaffectedly distressed.There was something terrible in this sudden break-up of poor Engelman's harmless life--something cruel and shocking in the passion of love fixing its relentless hold on an innocent old man,fast nearing the end of his days.There are hundreds of examples of this deplorable anomaly in real life;and yet,when we meet with it in our own experience,we are always taken by surprise,and always ready to express doubt or derision when we hear of it in the experience of others.
Madame Fontaine behaved admirably.She sat down on the window-seat at the end of the landing,and wrung her hands with a gesture of despair.
"Oh!"she said,"if he had asked me for anything else!If I could have made any other sacrifice to him!God knows I never dreamed of it;I never gave him the smallest encouragement.We might have all been so happy together here--and I,who would have gone to the world's end to serve Mr.
Keller and Mr.Engelman,I am the unhappy creature who has broken up the household!"Mr.Keller was deeply affected.He sat down on the window-seat by Madame Fontaine.
"My dear,dear lady,"he said,"you are entirely blameless in this matter.Even my unfortunate partner feels it,and asks your pardon.If inquiries can discover him,they shall be set on foot immediately.In the meantime,let me entreat you to compose yourself.Engelman has perhaps done wisely,to leave us for a time.He will get over his delusion,and all may be well yet."I went downstairs,not caring to hear more.All my sympathies,I confess,were with Mr.Engelman--though he _was_a fat ****** old man.Mr.Keller seemed to me (here is more of the "old head on young shoulders!")to have gone from one extreme to the other.He had begun by treating the widow with unbecoming injustice;and he was now flattering her with unreasonable partiality.
For the next few days there was tranquillity,if not happiness,in the house.Mr.Keller wrote to his sister in Munich,inviting her to mention the earliest date at which it might suit her convenience to be present at the marriage of his son.Madame Fontaine assumed the regular management of our domestic affairs.Fritz and Minna found sufficient attraction in each other's society.The new week was just beginning,and our inquiries after Mr.Engelman had thus far led to no result--when I received a letter containing news of the fugitive,confided to me under strict reserve.
The writer of the letter proved to be a married younger brother of Mr.
Engelman,residing at Bingen,on the Rhine.
"I write to you,dear sir,at my brother's request.My wife and I are doing all that we can to relieve and comfort him,but his mind has not yet sufficiently recovered to enable him to write to you himself.He desires to thank you heartily for your sympathy,at the most trying period of his life;and he trusts to your kindness to let him hear,from time to time,of Mr.Keller's progress towards recovery,and of the well-being of the business.In addressing your letters to me at Bingen,you will be pleased to consider the information of my brother's whereabouts herein afforded to you as strictly confidential,until you hear from me to the contrary.In his present frame of mind,it would be in the last degree painful to him to be made the subject of inquiries,remonstrances,or entreaties to return."The arrival of this sad news proved to be not the only noteworthy event of the day.While I was still thinking of poor Mr.Engelman,Fritz came into the office with his hat in his hand.
"Minna is not in very good spirits this morning,"he said."I am going to take her out for half an hour to look at the shops.Can you come with us?"This invitation rather surprised me."Does Minna wish it?"I asked.
Fritz dropped his voice so that the clerks in the room could not hear his reply."Minna has sent me to you,"he answered."She is uneasy about her mother.I can make nothing of it--and she wants to ask your advice."It was impossible for me to leave my desk at that moment.We arranged to put off the walk until after dinner.During the meal,I observed that not Minna only,but her mother also,appeared to be out of spirits.Mr.
Keller and Fritz probably noticed the change as I did.We were all of us more silent than usual.It was a relief so find myself with the lovers,out in the cheerful street.
Minna seemed to want to be encouraged before she could speak to me.I was obliged to ask in plain words if anything had happened to annoy her mother and herself.
